Today I feel beautiful because I am strong
Not because I fit into a size x-small
I stopped recording the weight of my body, but rather the weight on the bar.
I have found my freedom in my PRs.
Being better is not being less, eating less.
Being better is wanting more, having more, being more
Being better is about taking my space.
A space I reduced to just the frame because it was a space I was too weak to claim.
Struggles with weight are struggles with yourself.
An inability to feel loved, happy and well.
Perpetual overeating or obsessive control, I wasn’t trying to fill a stomach, but rather a hole.
I say it with absolute relief that I have found my escape.
I am no longer restrained by an image I’ve made.
I am saying my goodbye, bidding her farewell, she has served her time, but she can now go to Hell.
I am finally prepared to allow myself to change, I’m done with the guilt, I’m done with the shame.
Today I feel beautiful because I am learning to love every inch,
whether it’s made of fat, muscle or skin.
Today I feel beautiful because I am growing both outside and in,
Today I am beautiful because I have taken my space,
Today I am beautiful because I am laying my claim.